During that period I disappeared for a long time, neither posting content nor responding to anyone. I was very clear that, at that stage, expression itself was meaningless, so I chose to withdraw all outward output and focus my energy on one thing: getting through.
I kept reminding myself of my dreams, of wanting to give my parents a better life. My condition was poor then—I couldn't eat, I slept with nightmares, and I could only burn emotions through training and fitness each day. In that situation you realize one thing: you simply can't find any effective avenue for retaliation.
The rumors spread by paid trolls—did I do any of those? No, not a single one. But what's truly brutal isn't the content, it's the structure. If you try to explain, the explanation is taken as a sign of guilt; if you stay silent, silence is taken as acquiescence. The essence of the rumors isn't to make you lose, but to make you unable to win; it deprives you not of facts but of the position from which you speak.
I didn't choose to confront head‑on; instead I took a different path. I delved into history, looking at how the besieged and misunderstood figures broke free. Gradually I realized that those who truly move forward are never the ones who merely clarify; they are the ones who keep pushing ahead. The rhythm must not stop, emotions may be chaotic, but the direction must not be lost. Remaining unshaken is itself a response, staying steady is the answer.
During that time I also consumed a lot of material—books, movies—and saw people still managing to get things done piece by piece even in extreme conditions. I began to understand that experiencing darkness doesn't define who you are; the choices you make in the dark determine what you become afterward.
Yesterday I saw CZ's way of responding, and I knew that path wasn't one I could take then. I chose another route—not necessarily easier, just more suitable for my situation at the time.
I acknowledge the places where my words truly caused problems, and I take responsibility for them. But I will no longer bear what doesn't belong to me. Because if you remain stuck proving yourself, you'll never get out.
My current state is simple. I work out every day, study AI daily, and continue doing crypto, allocating my time to activities that build accumulation rather than draining on things that have already happened. I haven't stopped because of those rumors, nor have I given up on myself, because I know clearly that opportunities don't wait for someone still explaining—they only go to those who are already prepared.
So I haven't stopped in that experience. I've been through it, but I'm moving forward.
